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I jumped down from the toilet and turned on the hot wateï full blast, I soaked my washcloth in the steaming water until my palms burned, then pressed it onto my face, I breathed in through the wet heat. After a few splashes of cold water, I dried my face, took one more deep breath, and attempted a smile, I hoped nobody would "b^ able ,tp, tell I'd been crying,'' Mom gasped happily when I stepped out ofthe bathroom, "Oh, itfitsperfectly! Boys, look at Dori!" She pulled me out to the deck and I twirled around, not trusting myself to speak, as my brothers complimented me in my new shirt, "Cute, Dori," "Looks good," I looked up at my dad, who was slouched in his chair, watching us, "You look beautiful, sweetheart," he said, I tried to say thank you, but only the "thank" came out. I pressed my lips together and counted to 210 by 7s, trying to calm myself with math. Of course, math is what got me into this mess in thefirstplace..

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shifts at the diner, I was busy vñth my math homework. She sat down next to me and put her swollen feet up on the kitchen table. Mom tries to come home between shifts whenever she can, although she doesn't really need to. My oldest brother is in charge whue she's at work, and as for me, I am old enough to keep myself out of trouble, I just do homework or read, I have never in my whole life caused trouble. Well, until now. And this trouble was just for myself, "So, have you thought of what you want for your birthday yet?" I remember Mom asking, I rested my forehead in the space between my thumb and my index finger, leaning in closer to the math problem I was trying tofigureout, "Come on," she urged, after a gulp of her iced tea, "I gotta get back to work. What are you really hoping for?" "An Orion shirt," I mumbled, still trying to focus on my math. It was thefirstweek of school, and it was important to me to make a good start, to not fall behind, "What's an Orion shirt?" Mom asked enthusiastically, I shook my head. I hadn't meant to say anything, I erased the column of numbers I'd been working on, • - • "Tell me," Mom said, giving me a nudge with her iced-tea glass, "What's an Orion shirt? I've never heard ofthat. Don't chew on your lips, Dori, they get so chapped," I let my lip slip out of my teeth and said quietly, "It's nothing, just a kind of shirt,"

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"That everybody wears?" I shrugged, then nodded, and dusted my eraser crumbs away instead of looking at her. "They're just, you know, soft cotton, like knit. With a collar. And on the left collar, there are three little black stars." "Oh, yeah," Mom said cheerfully. "I've seen a lot of the girls wearing those at the diner. They're 'the thing' this year?" I shrugged. "Yeah, but they're expensive." "Oh." Mom stood up and kissed me on the top of my head. "Well, maybe the strike will end soon." "Maybe," I said. My father's union had been on strike since July, more than two months already. Every day, my mother told me maybe it would end soon. We hadn't even gone shopping for school supplies, our annual tradition the weekend before school starts. I was stul using last year's notebooks, trying to write small—to not use too much paper. "I don't really want an Orion shirt," I told her as she rinsed her glass. "I was just kidding. What I'd really like is, um, maybe a package of colored pencils. You know, the eight pack, like in AJ's store." I knew my brother AJ could get them for a 40 percent discount at the stationery store where he works after school. "We'll see," Mom said, leaving. "I'd better hustle."

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morning I hear her and Garleen and their friends complimenting each other on their Orion shirts—and on their hair, their homework, their ice-skating, their singing, everything. They are polite girls, and pretty—never really outwardly mean, at least not to me. Lisa even whispers "hi" to me sometimes. She gave me half a hug the first day of school this year. But mostly she doesn't notice me; none of them do. They are the A-group, the most popular girls in school. I am in no group at aU. I do my work, and I go home. Although they are as polite with one another as grown-up ladies, the A-group scares me a little. The day Mom was asking me what I wanted for my birthday. Lisa and Carleen and the others in the A-group had been comparing which colors of Orion shirts they had gotten to start the school year. Yellow a n d white s e e m e d to b e the top two. Though I wasn't paying close attention. But after I closed m y locker, I t u r n e d m y h e a d a n d found myself eye to eye with Lisa. She flicked her eyes down my body, taking in the h a n d - m e - d o w n T-shirt with the faded football o n it, from my brother Gal, a n d the brown-corduroy shorts gathered u p by a belt AJ h a d outgrown. Lisa smiled sympathetically, which is what m a d e m e feel bad. I shrugged, to show I don't care about surface things like what I wear, a n d walked away. But later, w h e n I was at the kitchen table with m y m o t h e r a n d her iced tea, I was thinking about myself in an Orion shirt. I was imagining how it would feel to get o n e of those purring compliments: "Oh, Dori! That's the exact Orion shirt I wanted! But it looks m u c h better on you."

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b a c k y a r d ^ h o t dogs, my favorite, and a white cake with chocolatefrosting.My little brother, Nate, whispered to me, "There is a big, beautiful present with a card with a rainbow on it, but don't tell anybody, because it's a secret." I promised I wouldn't teU anybody, but he was so excited he couldn't even eat his cake; so Mom let him give me the presents. There were two, held together with a yellow ribbon. On top was a card made by Nate. It had a drawing of a girl with long, long hair, much lohger than mine, standing beneath a rainbow. On the inside it said, DORI - HPPY BDAY, U RTHE B. That's Nate's way of writing "You are the best." He's only 4-and-a-half. I let him tear open the small present. It was a box of colored pencils, the eight pack. I hugged them and said thanks, and wondered for a second what the big box could be. Until I realized. I tore open the wrapping paper and saw that in that box was a shirt. A soft, knit shirt with a collar. And on the left collar, three little black... hearts. My stomach dropped. It was a fake, a cheap imitation, with hearts instead of stars. It was still too expensive, probably, for my mother to be buying for me this year. And it was worse than no Orion shirt at all. It was the fakeness that was so awful. I'd rather wear my brothers' old T-shirts. At least they are what they are, and don't try to be anything else. I held up the fake shirt for everybody to see, while my mother explained that it was an Orion shirt, the hottest trend of the year for the girls in my class. I chewed on my lip, and she didn't stop me, I gave her and my dad kisses, thanked them for the presents, and quickly helped clean up all the wrapping and paper plates so I wouldn't have to look at anybody. But when I got back outside, there was Mom, holding up the shirt, saying, "Go try it on, Dori. Let's see how it looks!" — , S« I went obediently to the bathroom, tried it on, cried at my reflection, modeled it for the family, theh headed straight for my room. I peeled it off and put on a comfortable old pair of pajamas. I folded the shirt, placed it neatly in my drawer, and closed the drawer tight. When Mom said I should come watch TV with everybody, I yelled down that I was tired and had to finish reading a book for school the next day Mom came up. "Hey, birthday girl," she gaid. I kept reading."Your new shirt is going to look great with your brown corduroys." I opened my mouth to protest, but no words-came. Just shame. Shame at not being able to aftord the real thing, a rehearsal shame for the real shame I knew I'd feel when Lisa and Carleen and the others in the A-group saw me th^ next morning at the lockers. I could see myself standing there wearing a fake, a wish-I-had-what-you-have-but-Ican't-afford-it imitation shirt. Not good enough. I turned away while my mother tucked . the blanket tight around me. "You are so loved," she whispered. At the lockers early in the morning. Lisa looked at me, not unkindly. But then Carleen yanked on Lisa's yellow Orion sleeve and whispered in her ear, I hung on to my locker and waited, I tasted the salty tear that slipped out by accident. I raised-my eyes to meet Lisa's.

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Carleen taunted, "Is it an Orion?" I shook my head and kept on crying, ready for the humiliation and punishment I knew I deserved. "No," I blubbered, ashamed, "it's a fake." When I blinked, the tears stopped. I suddenly couldn't believe that I, of all people, would be standing in the middle of the hallway, crying about a shirt. These tears are what I should be ashamed of, I realized, not the shirt, not hearts instead of stars. The eyebrows of the A-group were all raised. I touched the bottom hem of my new shirt. It felt very soft. I imagined my mother standing at the display at the Price Club. I pictured her rubbing the material, adding up how much it would cost with tax, how much it would subtract from how little we had. Then I imagined her picking up the shirt anyway and carrying it proudly to the checkout for her daughter. You are so loved, I heard in my head. A fake? Depends what's real, I guess. I smiled at the A-group and told them, "But it's the best present I ever got." I walked away feeling good enough. •

We love this poem by Rebecca Kai DotUch. As you read it, think about why an old piece of candy means so much to the narrator.

SWEET KEEPSAKE by Rebecca Kai Dotlich Along with marbles, small quartz and rubber bands I keep an old chocolate wrapped in foil in a treasure box. Who wants an old chocolate, you ask. I do. It wasn't much when it was just a piece of candy. A piece of candy (smushed a little) wrapped in foil still dreams of dancing just like me.

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W r i t e A b o u t S y m b o l i s m in the poem above, the speaker says the candy "wasn't much when i t was just a piece of candy." What does the speaker mean? In "Good Enough," how is the Orion shirt more than just a shirt? In other words, what does i t symbolize to Oori over the course of the story? Use text evidence in your answer. Send i t to RACHEL VAIL CONTEST. Five winners will each get Rachel Vail's wonderful book Never Mind! See page 2 for details. Gl GET THIS ACTIVITY ONLINE

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